Hello my dears! My name is Johanna, and I welcome you to the Johanna Draconis - The Deconstruction Of C-PTSD podcast.
In this episode we will talk about Injustice - a very good reason to be angry… or sad. That anger is most likely the fuel that lets you keep fighting back… and the sadness is likely what makes you despair.
You might feel primarily one of those two sides or you switch between these two states back and forth. Either way, it is something we all have to deal with. So, let us give it a voice and talk about it.
It is sadly often our reality, that we, people who suffered a trauma, get the short end of the stick. Rarely our stories end in a glorious victory and most of the time we get barely away with nothing but our bare skin.
It is just not fair. The victim gets the punishment and the tormentor gets away scot-free. It is like a parallel reality. For those of you who got PTSD from what they did, we talk about guilt another time.
Despite you maybe having caused harm, you can still be a victim and suffer injustice. Those categories can perfectly coexist - despite what many think. No one deserves to suffer needlessly.
A bit of suffering belongs to life, we learn this way, we appreciate things this way and we are shaped by it. Life itself provides enough suffering, no need to add to it or try to challenge life if it can’t do more.
As many of you most likely already learned. With that cheerful thought out of the way, let us first talk about what is unjust and where does the anger come from.
What is unjust?
Let us start with the question, what is unjust? Well, basically the universe. Life itself is inherently unjust. It just isn’t fair. The only form of justice that exists, is the one we created.
Yes, we are the pillar of justice. As hard as it is to believe. We created the system of justice, because most mammals, like us, apes, dogs, orcas and the like, have a sense of fair and unfairness. Justice and Injustice.
Outside of the system we create, there is no justice. The notion of getting what you deserve is an inventions of the mammals. Maybe that is the reason why we fear injustice so much.
Because we know there is an all too real chance we won’t get any justice. That what was done to us, will go unnoticed. Because that is the definition of unjust: Somebody not getting what they deserve.
But who decides who deserves what? Who deserves what punishment? That will always be a debate we will be having. There will never be a perfect answer, but only by keeping debating it, we get closest to perfect.
Sadly, there will always be people who will suffer Injustice, no matter how hard we try - but through constantly improving the system, we can keep the number to a minimum.
What is the cause for those feelings?
Still that is where the anger and sadness comes from: The pain that you won’t be getting what you deserve. Nor your tormentor. And there is nothing you can do about it. You are absolutely right to be upset by it.
Our society is based on the fact that we get what we deserve, almost all of our laws are build around it. As mentioned before we are social beings and justice makes us work in large groups.
The primal injustice, not getting your fair share on the loot, could lead to you dying. So the stronger and more life threatening the injustice, the stronger we protest. So you have every right to feel angry.
Or wronged. Or sad. Why wouldn’t you? If you weren’t upset by it, it would mean you are okay with what is happening. That you would accept it. And therefor declare the wrong that happened to you a right thing.
Because if there is no consequence for onces action, it means by default that the action was okay. So you are rightfully protesting. It is very hard for humans to change their behavior if they get no external feedback.
So your anger and sadness is a protest to society, a signal so to speak, that there is someone getting away with not getting what they deserve. Which, sadly, will most likely get unheard of.
So you REALLY have every right to feel the way you do. How do we deal with this? That is something we might talk about next week. This week it was all about the emotions felt by injustice.
I have to say, I wouldn’t be telling this story if it wasn’t so incredibly ridiculous. As I might have mentioned before, my dog isn’t in a great state. One of the reason is a food intolerance.
I tried for months trying to figure out what it is besides grain. Well, I found the answer this week: It is water. Yes, water. I wish I could make a picture every time I tell that to someone.
The faces I get are so funny and I completely understand them. Was most likely mine as well, when I figured it out. It is a “Are you kidding me?” face, that can’t believe it is reality.
Of course the dog isn’t REALLY allergic to water but what is IN the water. Which now makes me a little hesitant to drink it again. It just kind of leaves a weird feeling.
For a few days my dog has been getting filtered water and I do see a massive reduction of symptoms and him getting better. I do feel a bit bad, that it took me so long to figure this out.
But on the other hand, who would have ever thought or suspected it could be water? I surely didn’t and so did neither of the people I told about it… especially if I go by their faces they make.
That was it for todays episode, has been a rough week for me, so I might have gone a bit stronger on the sarcasm.
I hope you enjoyed this episode nonetheless, as usual, if you have any questions or feedback and the like, please let me know at email@example.com.
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I hope to see you next time. Watch yourselves and have a wonderful time.